Quite Smoking

Author (sites Admin) John MC

Quite Smoking,

This is my blog, based on my adventures on trying to quite smoking, I have been of the nicotine for a few months now, with the help of the good old patch, and at first, it felt really good to actually go for the pantry in the mornings to look for something to eat, rather then picking up a smoke, and heading out side with your coffee as well, ready to light up.

I have to say that I have been a smoker for over 20 years, so this is not easy for me, I have  2 kids, I’m married, ( My wife does not smoke) and I guess that helps a lot too, she has been supportive, although some times I feel that she does not understand my cravings.

Why did I decide to stop,.. well my seven year old daughter, asked me to, not sure where that came from but because she asked me, I decided to give this a go, after trying to stop in previous years, all attempts failed.

I had to give this a go, some year back, I did stop for about 8 months, It was at this time, I was working night shift - although I was ment to be sleeping with the patch on, I was actually awake working a 12 hour shift. the patch failed my cravings, so I asked a work mate to pass one over, a bit reluctant to do so, but I forced him too.

With in minutes I was away, yes after 8 months of not smoking, I felt absolute shit - I got up of the chair and spun around like some dumb ass kid playing with something he was ment to.

even though it felt bloody good, with in about half an hour I asked for another, the second one felt even better, about 3 ish in the morning, I took of with in our 15 min smoko  break, and decided to purchase a packet of cigarettes, buy 6am that morning I have polished a pack of 10.

I left work approx 7ish after resetting the machines up for the day shift, I sat in my car, and thought, now that I smell like smoke, I may as well tell the wife. she was very angry and disappointed, I guess at the stage I knew then she didn’t understand how hard the night was for me. there was no point in fighting over something that I failed to continue with even after 8 months.

I had to ask a friend of mine who has not touched a smoke for 16 years, how they did it - I didn’t really get anything back substantial enough to really work on to help me yet try again, the thing that gets me, is that even after those years of not smoking, he still feels the need to light up, Great there is no hope is there!!

I’m still going hard at this stage, trying to keep busy, no I have yet raided to food as I cant find comfort in that as a substitute for a smoke, I would rather keep moving cleaning up and house, doing the washing  - then when head of to work, again, just keep moving, sometimes I test me self  - I have my smoko with my mates, half of them smoke, no not to smell second hand smoke, but to see if it has an effect on my starving lungs.. so far, yes it still has.

I’m heading towards my third month now, as its getting even harder for me, and my wife is asking me about the third lot of patches, whats going to happen when you run out.?? at this stage I cant answer that one, the one thing that keeps me moving, and I can tell you its not a lot - but my daughters quest.

God I feel like one right now! BTW - this use to be my blog on AdSense , but I got sick and tired of reading all there was about it, I have stripped this blog right down, and started again, its a shame, because my blog ranked number 4 in Google,.. now that I have changed the heading, it prolly wont rank anywhere. That alone would be enough to start up a smoke. lol